Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
"The Anti-Life Equation"
Anti life equation
In dc comics, there is this one villain named Darkseid. He's one of the big villains who aims to rule the whole universe. In his pursue of universal domination, he discovered one thing that will help him conquer and that thing is called the anti life equation.
The anti life equation is a power of some sort that enables one being to have complete and utter control of other beings in the universe. Why is it called anti life when all it does is control? Well, the explanation is, when someone has complete control over you, you have no individuality, no emotion on your own, no conscience, on consciousness, no free will, in other words, you are nothing which means you no longer exist; hence the name "anti life equation"
Right now, i actually know the feeling of being under the "anti-life equation"; well, i may be exaggerating, but still, its one hell of a sentiment... A person should not be exposed to such emotionless, helpless, vulnerable, pathetic way of experience because of the mere fact that it is mortal to ones essence and dignity.. Imagine yourself presented to an inevitable predicament, where you only have one Option to consider which doesn't even guarantee the benefit that you actually deem to have.. Having to only choose the exact opposite of what you actually want, dream, will or wish, just to avoid any confrontation, anything negative, to save yourself the effort of arguing and fighting for what you stand for is the same as not existing at all..
Im talking to YOU. YOU who leaves me no other choice but to do your bidding, to accept defeat, surrender my all, do what is expected of me, Feel nothing, serve you, bend over for all your needs and inevitably choose what is must, just to please you.. All else, other than the dire alternatives presented to me are mortal in nature, which basically means deadly. You literally give me no other choice but to choose what is best for me to please you.. Do you get it? Its all of you, by you and, for you.. I do everything just for you to not get mad, angry, irritated and fu*ed up because if you do get fu*ed up, my life would also be fu*ed up and believe me, its a lot worse for me rather than for you.
I can be considered next to lifeless when it comes to YOU.. You don't know how i feel when i have to compensate for you. You rarely stop and ask if I'm ok, you rarely consider my side of the story and when you actually hear my side of the story, you go hard on yourself and eventually give up on everything. Imagine that, you quickly quit when i say something about you; but the thing is, that's not what I'm really after, what i really want from you is not to give up, but accept and change.. Yun lang..
I need YOU to see what i see, feel what i feel and above all, understand that you are now giving me a really hard time... Its so hard to explain myself to you because all you hear from my explanations are "how bad you are" and all others will be left out.. PLEASE, see me, know my side, get to know the pain i feel as you cast "the anti-life equation" over me.. Be aware of my sacrifices for us, for you.. I may not speak out at all times, but, it doesn't mean I'm not affected at all..Its not a hard riddle to crack, its just easy to miss..
In dc comics, there is this one villain named Darkseid. He's one of the big villains who aims to rule the whole universe. In his pursue of universal domination, he discovered one thing that will help him conquer and that thing is called the anti life equation.
The anti life equation is a power of some sort that enables one being to have complete and utter control of other beings in the universe. Why is it called anti life when all it does is control? Well, the explanation is, when someone has complete control over you, you have no individuality, no emotion on your own, no conscience, on consciousness, no free will, in other words, you are nothing which means you no longer exist; hence the name "anti life equation"
Right now, i actually know the feeling of being under the "anti-life equation"; well, i may be exaggerating, but still, its one hell of a sentiment... A person should not be exposed to such emotionless, helpless, vulnerable, pathetic way of experience because of the mere fact that it is mortal to ones essence and dignity.. Imagine yourself presented to an inevitable predicament, where you only have one Option to consider which doesn't even guarantee the benefit that you actually deem to have.. Having to only choose the exact opposite of what you actually want, dream, will or wish, just to avoid any confrontation, anything negative, to save yourself the effort of arguing and fighting for what you stand for is the same as not existing at all..
Im talking to YOU. YOU who leaves me no other choice but to do your bidding, to accept defeat, surrender my all, do what is expected of me, Feel nothing, serve you, bend over for all your needs and inevitably choose what is must, just to please you.. All else, other than the dire alternatives presented to me are mortal in nature, which basically means deadly. You literally give me no other choice but to choose what is best for me to please you.. Do you get it? Its all of you, by you and, for you.. I do everything just for you to not get mad, angry, irritated and fu*ed up because if you do get fu*ed up, my life would also be fu*ed up and believe me, its a lot worse for me rather than for you.
I can be considered next to lifeless when it comes to YOU.. You don't know how i feel when i have to compensate for you. You rarely stop and ask if I'm ok, you rarely consider my side of the story and when you actually hear my side of the story, you go hard on yourself and eventually give up on everything. Imagine that, you quickly quit when i say something about you; but the thing is, that's not what I'm really after, what i really want from you is not to give up, but accept and change.. Yun lang..
I need YOU to see what i see, feel what i feel and above all, understand that you are now giving me a really hard time... Its so hard to explain myself to you because all you hear from my explanations are "how bad you are" and all others will be left out.. PLEASE, see me, know my side, get to know the pain i feel as you cast "the anti-life equation" over me.. Be aware of my sacrifices for us, for you.. I may not speak out at all times, but, it doesn't mean I'm not affected at all..Its not a hard riddle to crack, its just easy to miss..
Thursday, January 16, 2014
From My Perspective..
they say, a man can only be as good through his actions.. but, can the actions be really good for other people? i just want people to not feel the pain i experience..i just want them to live not like me, but like what i dream to be. a person shouldn't be living to experience pain, a person lives to avoid pain, and that is exactly what i want.. the thing is, no matter how many times i do stuff for them that'll prevent them from feeling bad, no matter how many times i make them smile and forget the numerous problems in the world, i still get nothing...
isn't that a riddle in itself? why is it that the things that you do for them, be it acts of selflessness or even of love, doesn't return to you? they say that what goes around comes around, but i guess, in reality, good deeds -most of the time- don't come back.. i say this because i have lived most of my life trying to prevent bad feelings to be felt by the people i care for. i give them time, resources, happiness, humor, love, care, respect, understanding, almost everything, but they only seem to keep it for themselves..
i guess what i'm trying to say, is that, sometimes, i too just want to be given a soda can, i too, just want to hear a joke once in a while, i want a new shirt, a lunch treat, somebody to pick me up from school or my house then go some where, asked questions like "how was your day?" "do you need anything?" "want me to buy you food somewhere?".. questions that i ask to the people i care for..
is it bad to ask for those things? is it bad for me to want to be the center of attention -(positive attention)- once in a while? i didn't even get the stuff i wanted for my birthday.. i don't even get sympathy or consideration.. i think its expected of me to just become numb of those things because it never crosses their minds that i too am human..
even this post i made, some people will sure have negative things to say to this post. they'll say that it isn't true what i experience from them and blah blah blah.. the thing is, you're not the ones how sits in their beds, looking dazed and thinking to themselves "i just did them a favor, why do they still think that i don't need one..." i'm sorry for crying all this out, and i know that good deeds need not to have rewards because they are essential and the right things to do. but, its not so wrong to expect... i may have doomed myself of wanting even the equivalent of what i bring them but in the end, i just want them to not be me..
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